I know. I know. I know. Yet, I can do nothing about it. It isn't a screaming desire or craving, but when I see my ex I still feel a lot of love for him. I even still lust after him, but also want to be with him in a partnered way. We broke apart due to my assignment to Washington DC in 2005, and kept up communication. He found another lover a year later, but still said he had feelings for me. Well, I guess we never truly stop caring for anyone who was an integral part of our lives, right?
I recently moved back to Norfolk, Va and we met up a couple of times. Each time I kept wishing he was still with me.
I know the facts already:
1. I was the one who left.
2. I should have no expectations from him since he is in another relationship.
3. I should let it go and find someone else.But the heart is a thing that doesn't understand logic.
It just feels. After 3 1/2 years, why do I still have such strong feelings for this handsome bastard!!!???
plz keep posting.. i know its more than a year you wrote something on this blog but would love to read more ,) xx
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